*turns it off, he's heard enough, and heads down there* Azeria... listen. Estella just has that personality, it's not you. I know you can be a dom, and me coming in here, I now realize just put me at your mercy... The point though.. *looking around at all the shit she could possibly use on him making him a little nervous* is that she's just not gonna get dominated. Even with each other it's more of a who feels like it kinda thing. As for better than you? Not at all. Different lifestyle? you bet your ass, but she's not better than you. And you're far from a failure. I love you as much as I love anyone else here. Just cause i'm not always here doesn't make that any less real. I'm where I'm wanted. And i'm not where i'm not. I leave it to the girls to call for me most of the time. They do what they do, and if they want me there, they call for me. It really is that simple. Whether it be to watch some nature documentary with Fernessa, get a cup of coffee with Tsuki, or Fuck Estella into a puddle. Or..... to play cards against humanity with my wife... You are all special, loved, cherished, and appreciated not for what you do, but who you are, and what you do. It's that variety, that... blending of different traits that makes my life complete. Take any piece away, and the whole thing gets that much less special. You're a key to it, you all are... That soft, bashfullness, and utter care that she brings. *lift's Azuli's head and kisses her* Or that wild let's go nuts attitude that you bring. *kisses Azeria* I love it all... I love you all...